{"id":179967,"date":"2026-04-04T21:13:34","date_gmt":"2026-04-04T20:13:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=179967"},"modified":"2026-04-04T21:13:34","modified_gmt":"2026-04-04T20:13:34","slug":"april-but-no-showers-yet","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/04\/04\/april-but-no-showers-yet\/","title":{"rendered":"April But No Showers Yet"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Today I was at Jon&#8217;s in Chesham rehearsing for our next Invisibles gigs. It went fairly well. Plenty of traffic on the M1 as usual but no holdups. I have managed to climb a few personal Everests and K2s one might say over the years. Its a good feeling but where does one go next? And as the Rolling Stones song goes, &#8220;You cant always get what you want, but sometimes you get what you need&#8221; . I had a critical listen to a few of my more recent released tracks. They do stand up quite well in most respects musically and in terms of production. Surprisingly so to be honest. There is an element of The Wizard of Oz to this. It seems much more than the some of its parts but its just me behind the curtain working the puppets. That&#8217;s show biz though. Judging by the posts of some of my contemporary&#8217;s in my peer group I do wonder if some are actually going senile at times. I have just unfollowed yet another musician who has posted a bible quote under an AI picture of a crusader just off on his way to kill the to brown people that book says aforesaid profit was born among. <br><br><strong>Make it stop please.<\/strong> <br><br>Here is a song for you, and you and you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"100%\" height=\"166\" scrolling=\"no\" frameborder=\"no\" allow=\"autoplay\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/soundcloud%253Atracks%253A2293191236&#038;color=%23400e0e&#038;auto_play=false&#038;hide_related=false&#038;show_comments=true&#038;show_user=true&#038;show_reposts=false&#038;show_teaser=true\"><\/iframe><div style=\"font-size: 10px; color: #cccccc;line-break: anywhere;word-break: normal;overflow: hidden;white-space: nowrap;text-overflow: ellipsis; font-family: Interstate,Lucida Grande,Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Sans,Garuda,Verdana,Tahoma,sans-serif;font-weight: 100;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\" title=\"Diana Stones Glasscage\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\">Diana Stones Glasscage<\/a> \u00b7 <a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/marching-in-lines\" title=\"Marching In Lines\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\">Marching In Lines<\/a><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I have hit the buffers I think. The tiredness I experience now more often and in part that may well be due to the arthritis getting worse when its bad. I don&#8217;t have trouble doing stuff generally, playing gigs and what not. So it may be in part depression at present. I do buck up when I have something that occupies my mind. I don&#8217;t seem to have anxiety manifesting as panic attacks anything like as often as I used to, but this seems allied being in a much less energetic state. Its like I am running at much lower revs now. That should be a good thing. I also think my state of mind is due to the news and and other stuff that I cant affect too. I am getting close to being 5 years older than my dad was now when he died. Maybe I am just thinking too much?  Compared to many older folk my life is not too bad over all. I shouldn&#8217;t be getting so down about stuff but it is mental health issue of course. I am feeling very introspective at present. I have come along way in many respects which is good, but I do feel a little bit of the old &#8220;Is that all there is&#8221; First world problems I guess really? A Neckache this morning. Ouch. So best laid plans and all that. Neck pain is related to my back issues and so not lightly to change much. Much as I would like to I don&#8217;t think I can make my world much bigger at present. I spent about half of yesterday working on music. Then just fell in to the usual gloom. Before bed I watched a recent (2024 ) low budget Indy sci-fi comedy film though on Amazon which I really enjoyed though. Cast of 4 people basically and shot in the desert. Probably filmed on a couple of iPhone&#8217;s and a tripod but cool vibe and fun.<br><br> When I have a set back or a problem to often I have to remind myself that 99% of the time its not a conspiracy or plot or personal attack on me. That&#8217;s my inheritance from school, growing up and teenage years. Its programmed in on a very deep level. I deal with it better now but at bad times it will still rear up again to confront me. How does one fight phantoms and ghosts? This year has been hard for me so far as things just seem to have stalled again. I think in part its the fact so many (live) music projects have been dead ends really. I did turn up a bit of interesting health related info.  Apparently a pot belly can be caused by cortisol (lack of sleep and stress). My beer belly has got bigger since I stopped regularly drinking real ale bizarrely. I rarely have beer now. I am not over eating or drinking much either. That might make sense.<br><br>I really did hope I would be able to build on my reputation with the Delta Ladies and ES and go on pastures new after Vicky&#8217;s death but the pandemic put the breaks on that. Plus both my mental and physical health suffered too. Despite trying there was no way to get back on the bus. Yes I am still at it at least doing a bit but it stings. So I understand the sense of loss and regret well enough and failure. To me the fact that I couldn&#8217;t find somebody to really work with feels like a failure on my part, but its also because of age. People I could have worked with have gone into pipe and slippers mode and younger people are not likely to be interested. So yes I have done stuff but I feel a huge sense of loss and that hurts. The difference is that although I did make a few mistakes it wasn&#8217;t all on me. Not much to be said really. One particular thing is different though, the years of bullying and put downs have created an attitude in me that  I have been used to dodging the slings and arrows of outrageous do dah and so expect problems and obstacles\/roadblocks. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Today I was at Jon&#8217;s in Chesham rehearsing for our next Invisibles gigs. It went fairly well. Plenty of traffic on the M1 as usual but no holdups. I have managed to climb a few personal Everests and K2s one might say over the years. Its a good feeling but where does one go next? &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/04\/04\/april-but-no-showers-yet\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">April But No Showers Yet<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":180009,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-179967","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-musings"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/04\/DaysOf-Yore.jpg?fit=952%2C331&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6NRDR-KOH","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":175559,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2022\/11\/04\/prelude-to-winter\/","url_meta":{"origin":179967,"position":0},"title":"Prelude To Winter","author":"diana Stone","date":"November 4, 2022","format":false,"excerpt":"It's starting to get cold now. 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