{"id":179853,"date":"2026-02-22T17:43:32","date_gmt":"2026-02-22T17:43:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=179853"},"modified":"2026-02-22T17:43:32","modified_gmt":"2026-02-22T17:43:32","slug":"a-crisis-of-faith","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/02\/22\/a-crisis-of-faith\/","title":{"rendered":"A Crisis Of Faith"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"100%\" height=\"166\" scrolling=\"no\" frameborder=\"no\" allow=\"autoplay\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/soundcloud%253Atracks%253A2270850167&#038;color=%23400e0e&#038;auto_play=false&#038;hide_related=false&#038;show_comments=true&#038;show_user=true&#038;show_reposts=false&#038;show_teaser=true\"><\/iframe><div style=\"font-size: 10px; color: #cccccc;line-break: anywhere;word-break: normal;overflow: hidden;white-space: nowrap;text-overflow: ellipsis; font-family: Interstate,Lucida Grande,Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Sans,Garuda,Verdana,Tahoma,sans-serif;font-weight: 100;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\" title=\"Diana Stones Glasscage\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\">Diana Stones Glasscage<\/a> \u00b7 <a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/big-sticking-plaster\" title=\"Big Sticking Plaster\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\">Big Sticking Plaster<\/a><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>It may seem silly but the thought that I am now 69 hit me in a weird way. To me that&#8217;s proper old \ud83d\ude02 I suddenly had an oh shit moment and a feeling that this cant be me, can it? Sounds mad I suppose.  Its all getting a bit &#8216;Sunset Boulevard&#8217; now. Nurse bring the screens<br><br>The problem I have at the moment is the more I try to get stuff started the more disheartened I become. But its not just me it seems. The music I create is getting ever more popular which is of course satisfying on one level but unless I actually attempt to form a band I seem to be out of options. Forming a band is a lot of bother of course. perhaps more than I could deal with.<br><br>I have definitely hit a rock in the road confidence wise. I think all I can do is wait for spring and hopefully a reset will occur. I saw an ad on Facebook with a guy looking for a female vocalist to work with in a duo and it was interesting that he said this:<br><br>&#8220;Thanks everyone for the likes but can people just DM me if they are actually interested&#8221;. So it looks like basically nobody has responded. I get the feeling and a lot of others have said the same that things are just shutting down. People don&#8217;t want to leave the house. So its not just me and its not just my age and demographic either. <br><br>I don&#8217;t want to give up on live performance personally but if I could be content with just the occasional gig I would be happier. Trouble is that&#8217;s where things are and my tiny ape brain just can&#8217;t accept it. Worlds changed and I cant adapt it seems. So although I have done stuff, I do feel my self-esteem\/confidence nose diving just a tad. In a sense any fix is actually not about what I do, its about how I feel about. That&#8217;s the hard part.<br><br>Things have changed a lot. The gig scene is mostly in terms of audiences either proper music fans or musicians, but a lot less casual punters now. That is a post covid effect. And also people cant afford to go out so much so they don&#8217;t or they save up and just go to special events. Pay \u00a3500 quid to go to a festival but never see a live band in a pub for free is much more the case. Redbourn Folk clubs getting such low attendances that they may have to pack it in apparently if things don&#8217;t buck up and many folk clubs in pubs are in a similar position as they don&#8217;t take enough money over the bar to keep the lights on. People are now going out in summer but staying home in winter to an extent as well.<br><br>I just haven&#8217;t got the oomph for anything at present. So maybe I should just wait until it comes back, if it comes back. In truth I am not motivated to go out much and there are plenty of opportunity&#8217;s. Maybe I am just making excuses not to go to OM&#8217;s and similar. I think its me as much as its everything else now. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-9-16 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"At The End Of The Day\" width=\"510\" height=\"906\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/EBABHTvVjqE?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><br><br><br><br><br><br><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Diana Stones Glasscage \u00b7 Big Sticking Plaster It may seem silly but the thought that I am now 69 hit me in a weird way. To me that&#8217;s proper old \ud83d\ude02 I suddenly had an oh shit moment and a feeling that this cant be me, can it? Sounds mad I suppose. Its all getting &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/02\/22\/a-crisis-of-faith\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">A Crisis Of Faith<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":179873,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-179853","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-musings"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/Farout.png?fit=618%2C412&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6NRDR-KMR","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":177266,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/05\/03\/some-musings-on-how-life-is-now\/","url_meta":{"origin":179853,"position":0},"title":"Some Musings On How Life Is Now","author":"diana Stone","date":"May 3, 2024","format":false,"excerpt":"I had a good band rehearsal last night, but I must admit I am a little tired today. 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