{"id":179767,"date":"2026-02-03T19:17:51","date_gmt":"2026-02-03T19:17:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=179767"},"modified":"2026-02-03T19:17:51","modified_gmt":"2026-02-03T19:17:51","slug":"february-2026-thoughts-on-getting-older","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/02\/03\/february-2026-thoughts-on-getting-older\/","title":{"rendered":"February 2026, Thoughts On Getting Older"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Well, a funny old day. I couldn&#8217;t settle to anything at all. Slight gloom ensued. I am sleeping OK but still waking up tired at present. What I notice is if I am out and doing stuff I feel OK but at home although I am nowhere near as anxious as I have been for a long time I do feel very tired. Again though if I am beavering away making a recording or writing music or learning something new I am fine. So how much is depression and how much is actually physiology in all this? I can get energy to do stuff, but once I have run through my to do list, its like my strings have been cut and I collapse in a heap.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full is-style-rounded\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"567\" height=\"879\" data-attachment-id=\"179783\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/02\/03\/february-2026-thoughts-on-getting-older\/central-park\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/central-park.png?fit=567%2C879&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"567,879\" data-comments-opened=\"0\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"central park\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/central-park.png?fit=567%2C879&amp;ssl=1\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/central-park.png?resize=567%2C879&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-179783\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/central-park.png?w=567&amp;ssl=1 567w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/central-park.png?resize=194%2C300&amp;ssl=1 194w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 567px) 100vw, 567px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><br>BTW I had a funny dream and at the end of it I was on a wooden boat with Donald Trump and others in NY harbour near the statue of liberty and it was sunk, and the Donald was saying don&#8217;t launch the missiles they will destroy us all as we are at the target. We were all bobbing around in life jackets at that point, then I woke up&#8230; It was so real.<br><br>I should have gone out again today as being in a lot seems to put me out of sorts a bit. I had a quick walk around the block but even with several layers the cold got to me. Even being out for 20 minutes makes a difference though I find. Sometimes when I am feeling a bit low I sort of lock up and stop doing anything. Usually at that point the mournful thoughts creep up. Having been very busy with various music and related projects and having finished those, I did not want to plough straight in to the next thing and sort of thought about going out but didn&#8217;t. <br><br>I have been working on some music, I feel half dead but that&#8217;s OK. A song that&#8217;s developing nicely so far. It&#8217;s the case that creatively I do better if I have switch off and refresh. yesterday was a bit like that and half today I was also mentally off line.   <br><br>Music \ud83c\udfb6<\/p>\n\n\n<ul class=\"has-excerpts wp-block-rss\"><li class='wp-block-rss__item'><div class='wp-block-rss__item-title'><a href='https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/have-we-been-here-before'>Have We Been Here Before<\/a><\/div><div class=\"wp-block-rss__item-excerpt\">Mellow synth and piano instrumental<\/div><\/li><li class='wp-block-rss__item'><div class='wp-block-rss__item-title'><a href='https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/remember-that-time-when-you'>Remember that time when you were cosmic<\/a><\/div><div class=\"wp-block-rss__item-excerpt\">Remember that time when you were cosmic by Diana Stone<\/div><\/li><li class='wp-block-rss__item'><div class='wp-block-rss__item-title'><a href='https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/make-free-with-me'>Make Free With Me<\/a><\/div><div class=\"wp-block-rss__item-excerpt\">A song about letting go and being happy<\/div><\/li><li class='wp-block-rss__item'><div class='wp-block-rss__item-title'><a href='https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/maybe-faith-hope-and-charity'>Maybe Faith Hope and Charity<\/a><\/div><div class=\"wp-block-rss__item-excerpt\">Maybe Faith Hope and Charity by Diana Stone<\/div><\/li><li class='wp-block-rss__item'><div class='wp-block-rss__item-title'><a href='https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/on-a-day-such-as-this-only'>On A Day Such As This Only Memories<\/a><\/div><div class=\"wp-block-rss__item-excerpt\">On A Day Such As This Only Memories by Diana Stone<\/div><\/li><li class='wp-block-rss__item'><div class='wp-block-rss__item-title'><a href='https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/marching-in-lines'>Marching In Lines<\/a><\/div><div class=\"wp-block-rss__item-excerpt\">A protest song sort of.<\/div><\/li><li class='wp-block-rss__item'><div class='wp-block-rss__item-title'><a href='https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/disappointments-and'>Disappointments and Distractions<\/a><\/div><div class=\"wp-block-rss__item-excerpt\">Slightly world vibes alt pop-rock song with prog overtones<\/div><\/li><li class='wp-block-rss__item'><div class='wp-block-rss__item-title'><a href='https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/interference-patterns'>Interference Patterns<\/a><\/div><div class=\"wp-block-rss__item-excerpt\">Violin chil-out vibe with Synths<\/div><\/li><li class='wp-block-rss__item'><div class='wp-block-rss__item-title'><a href='https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/false-dawns-illusion'>False Dawns Illusion<\/a><\/div><div class=\"wp-block-rss__item-excerpt\">Gentle solo piano piece<\/div><\/li><li class='wp-block-rss__item'><div class='wp-block-rss__item-title'><a href='https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/everything-scares-me-so'>Everything Scares Me So<\/a><\/div><div class=\"wp-block-rss__item-excerpt\">A song about feeling scared like so many of us are right now.<\/div><\/li><\/ul>\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"604\" height=\"431\" data-attachment-id=\"179793\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/02\/03\/february-2026-thoughts-on-getting-older\/big-beat-2\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/big-beat-1.png?fit=1214%2C866&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"1214,866\" data-comments-opened=\"0\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"big beat\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/big-beat-1.png?fit=604%2C431&amp;ssl=1\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/big-beat-1-1024x730.png?resize=604%2C431&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-179793\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/big-beat-1.png?resize=1024%2C730&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/big-beat-1.png?resize=300%2C214&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/big-beat-1.png?resize=768%2C548&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/big-beat-1.png?w=1214&amp;ssl=1 1214w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 604px) 100vw, 604px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Those were the days \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Well, a funny old day. I couldn&#8217;t settle to anything at all. Slight gloom ensued. I am sleeping OK but still waking up tired at present. What I notice is if I am out and doing stuff I feel OK but at home although I am nowhere near as anxious as I have been for &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/02\/03\/february-2026-thoughts-on-getting-older\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">February 2026, Thoughts On Getting Older<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":179792,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-179767","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-musings"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/02\/big-beat.png?fit=1214%2C866&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6NRDR-KLt","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":177059,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/04\/06\/how-to-keep-it-all-together\/","url_meta":{"origin":179767,"position":0},"title":"How To Keep It All Together","author":"diana Stone","date":"April 6, 2024","format":false,"excerpt":"The world is rumbling on toward destruction as ever, its difficult to ignore and hard to understand and exhausting and depressing to think about. 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Not too good at all. Yep, today got cancelled. I had heat exhaustion\/heat stroke come on last night might also have been compounded by anxiety too. mixture of both perhaps? Been in bed most of today. 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I am\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Musings&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Musings","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/category\/musings\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":179112,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2025\/07\/18\/hot-in-bedfordshire-not-a-euphemism\/","url_meta":{"origin":179767,"position":4},"title":"Hot in Bedfordshire. Not a euphemism","author":"diana Stone","date":"July 18, 2025","format":false,"excerpt":"Hot in Bedfordshire. Not a euphemism. Sweaty, sweaty...Well yes it is indeed. Still super hot. Even with aircon I am just not coping so well. am tired again today. Annoying as I haven't been that busy really. Maybe too much mental traffic in the last few weeks I think. 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