{"id":177595,"date":"2024-07-01T13:57:25","date_gmt":"2024-07-01T12:57:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=177595"},"modified":"2024-07-01T13:57:25","modified_gmt":"2024-07-01T12:57:25","slug":"if-its-a-fight-you-want-you-have-already-lost-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/07\/01\/if-its-a-fight-you-want-you-have-already-lost-it\/","title":{"rendered":"If It&#8217;s A Fight You Want You Have Already Lost It."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Today I got stressed again. So here is a new song I just finished because why not. I need a distraction. Currently I am starting to work on reducing my anxiety triggers with a bit off desensitisation therapy. I am not sure how much it will help but I need to try. I am still getting hung up on stuff or triggered a lot. And losing my temper. I just can&#8217;t handle things too well right now. But maybe it&#8217;s still &#8220;Feel the fear and do it anyway&#8221;. Maybe I am fighting myself though?  Feels like it at times. I have a lot of anger in me that is just under the surface. Its to do with being\/feeling powerless and it&#8217;s a hangover from when I was growing up, but it&#8217;s never gone away.  Ho hum.  I just can&#8217;t flush it from the system like lime scale in a kettle almost. <br> <\/p>\n\n\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"100%\" height=\"166\" scrolling=\"no\" frameborder=\"no\" allow=\"autoplay\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/1859121606&#038;color=%238c8cc8&#038;auto_play=false&#038;hide_related=false&#038;show_comments=true&#038;show_user=true&#038;show_reposts=false&#038;show_teaser=true\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<div style=\"font-size: 10px; color: #cccccc;line-break: anywhere;word-break: normal;overflow: hidden;white-space: nowrap;text-overflow: ellipsis; font-family: Interstate,Lucida Grande,Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Sans,Garuda,Verdana,Tahoma,sans-serif;font-weight: 100;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\" title=\"Diana Stones Glasscage\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" rel=\"noopener\">Diana Stones Glasscage<\/a> \u00b7 <a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/even-if-you-dont-like-the-taste\" title=\"Even If You Dont Like The Taste\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" rel=\"noopener\">Even If You Dont Like The Taste<\/a><\/div>\n\n\n<p>Are we are on the brink? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large is-style-rounded\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"604\" height=\"805\" data-attachment-id=\"177628\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/07\/01\/if-its-a-fight-you-want-you-have-already-lost-it\/20220621_141621\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/20220621_141621-scaled.jpg?fit=1920%2C2560&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"1920,2560\" data-comments-opened=\"0\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;1.7&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;SM-G950F&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;1655820981&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;4.2&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;40&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0.00060827250608273&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;1&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"20220621_141621\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/20220621_141621-scaled.jpg?fit=604%2C805&amp;ssl=1\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/20220621_141621-768x1024.jpg?resize=604%2C805&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-177628\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/20220621_141621-scaled.jpg?resize=768%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/20220621_141621-scaled.jpg?resize=225%2C300&amp;ssl=1 225w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/20220621_141621-scaled.jpg?resize=1152%2C1536&amp;ssl=1 1152w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/20220621_141621-scaled.jpg?resize=1536%2C2048&amp;ssl=1 1536w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/20220621_141621-scaled.jpg?w=1920&amp;ssl=1 1920w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/20220621_141621-scaled.jpg?w=1208 1208w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/07\/20220621_141621-scaled.jpg?w=1812 1812w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 604px) 100vw, 604px\" \/><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Today I got stressed again. So here is a new song I just finished because why not. I need a distraction. Currently I am starting to work on reducing my anxiety triggers with a bit off desensitisation therapy. I am not sure how much it will help but I need to try. I am still &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/07\/01\/if-its-a-fight-you-want-you-have-already-lost-it\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">If It&#8217;s A Fight You Want You Have Already Lost It.<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[30,10,60,4,3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-177595","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-delta-ladies-diana_stones_songs","category-diana_stones_songs","category-glass-cage","category-music","category-musings"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6NRDR-Kcr","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":179061,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2025\/06\/22\/still-too-hot\/","url_meta":{"origin":177595,"position":0},"title":"Still too hot.","author":"diana Stone","date":"June 22, 2025","format":false,"excerpt":"It's still to hot for me. 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With a half decent gig as one third of the Delta Ladies at the halfway house in barnes \u00a0the night before, so that was alright. \u00a0I seem to be doing less and less recently and I am a\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Musings&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Musings","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/category\/musings\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"","width":0,"height":0},"classes":[]},{"id":177527,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/06\/19\/learned-hopelessness\/","url_meta":{"origin":177595,"position":2},"title":"Learned Hopelessness","author":"diana Stone","date":"June 19, 2024","format":false,"excerpt":"I mostly just mumble a bit about depression and mental health mixed in with other stuff on this blog. But I thought it worth saying a little bit about my own personal experience now as an older adult. 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The overwhelming urge to hibernate is getting really strong at present. A few minor tech problems hit my music making, but I think I have got it licked now. Well almost so we will see. 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