{"id":177527,"date":"2024-06-19T16:56:11","date_gmt":"2024-06-19T15:56:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=177527"},"modified":"2024-06-19T16:56:11","modified_gmt":"2024-06-19T15:56:11","slug":"learned-hopelessness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/06\/19\/learned-hopelessness\/","title":{"rendered":"Learned Hopelessness"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I mostly just mumble a bit about depression and mental health mixed in with other stuff on this blog. But I thought it worth saying a little bit about my own personal experience now as an older adult. There is a different flavour to things without the extremes of mood but rather its more the case that things are very dull or flavourless rather than existential angst now. But it&#8217;s also a feeling of hopelessness too. <\/p>\n\n\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/1850402913&amp;color=%238c8cc8&amp;auto_play=false&amp;hide_related=false&amp;show_comments=true&amp;show_user=true&amp;show_reposts=false&amp;show_teaser=true\" width=\"100%\" height=\"166\" frameborder=\"no\" scrolling=\"no\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<div style=\"font-size: 10px; color: #cccccc; line-break: anywhere; word-break: normal; overflow: hidden; white-space: nowrap; text-overflow: ellipsis; font-family: Interstate,Lucida Grande,Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Sans,Garuda,Verdana,Tahoma,sans-serif; font-weight: 100;\"><a style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" title=\"Diana Stones Glasscage\" href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Diana Stones Glasscage<\/a> \u00b7 <a style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" title=\"Don't Understand\" href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/dont-understand\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Don&#8217;t Understand<\/a><\/div>\n\n\n<p>I was on antidepressants for a very long time. Around 15 to 20 years and eventually I got fed up with some of the behavioural effects that they had on me. Then I had a &#8220;Camalot&#8221; period where music became my career for around 20 years and there was stress but also a lot of good times too. Then due to a bereavement and not being able to continue the band due to the covid lockdown. I emerged blinking into the light back at base camp. Last year I had a bit of a health scare, that might have reduced my mobility. I have been trying to be positive on the music front but this year I feel like giving up a little bit now. Also like everybody else financial constraints have stopped me doing a lot of stuff. Most ventures turn into unproductive dead ends and damp squibs. Everything has changed and their does not seem to be a slot to fit into anymore for me. Of course maybe I just can&#8217;t adapt sufficiently. This last year I have felt pretty much as though there is just nowhere to go with it all anymore and to be honest pretty useless.  So maybe that&#8217;s it and I am done. It is tempting to go back to taking SSRIs. Maybe I should just give up and go back on the drugs again. They do reduce inhibition so that alone could make life a bit more interesting or even exciting in unexpected ways as it certainly did on a few occasions in the past. Though I am not entirely sure that&#8217;s what I need right now \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>What is the best polite way to deflect ill judged or bad advice that is offered with the best intention without causing offence to the doner. I have been reminded today that some as we get older adopt a notion of ageing that is very limiting. Of course some people are struck down with dreadful illnesses and afflictions, but for those that aren&#8217;t please don&#8217;t give up just yet. Also try not to re-enforce or promulgate negative stereotypes. Do not go gentle&#8230;. Of course it helps if you have a reasonably open mind as a starting place. Maybe I need to get a punch bag? <br><br>I am working on a new track titled &#8220;Maybe It&#8217;s Aliens&#8221; although of course it never is. And my head hurts a bit now. 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