{"id":177468,"date":"2024-06-08T18:32:02","date_gmt":"2024-06-08T17:32:02","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=177468"},"modified":"2024-06-08T18:32:02","modified_gmt":"2024-06-08T17:32:02","slug":"strange-days-again-it-seems","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/06\/08\/strange-days-again-it-seems\/","title":{"rendered":"Strange Days Again It Seems"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-beige-background-color has-background\">Today I lost my temper out of the blue. It really scares me when that happens and it makes me feel bad afterwards.  I think its the one remnant of childhood and being bullied. I can overreact although I try not to. It sneaks up on me like  a thunderstorm out of the blue. it hasn&#8217;t happened so much recently, but it never goes away entirely.  I do have techniques to manage it when it does happen, but I just wish it didn&#8217;t in the first place. I had a good day yesterday and was feeling fine. Paradoxically it often  happens when I have been feeling good. It is it just electrochemical stuff going on in my grey matter? it&#8217;s not rational. Triggered by other stresses perhaps? Its weird and I could really do without it. I often go from being low and unenergetic to feeling good and uplifted but then I always get to a point where I start to tip in to mania. So a warning flag.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large is-style-default\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"604\" height=\"294\" data-attachment-id=\"177471\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/06\/08\/strange-days-again-it-seems\/20240607_211054\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/20240607_211054-scaled.jpg?fit=2560%2C1244&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"2560,1244\" data-comments-opened=\"0\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;1.7&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;SM-G950F&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;1717794654&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;4.2&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;40&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0.0014409221902017&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;1&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"20240607_211054\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/20240607_211054-scaled.jpg?fit=604%2C294&amp;ssl=1\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/20240607_211054-1024x498.jpg?resize=604%2C294&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-177471\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/20240607_211054-scaled.jpg?resize=1024%2C498&amp;ssl=1 1024w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/20240607_211054-scaled.jpg?resize=300%2C146&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/20240607_211054-scaled.jpg?resize=768%2C373&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/20240607_211054-scaled.jpg?resize=1536%2C747&amp;ssl=1 1536w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/20240607_211054-scaled.jpg?resize=2048%2C996&amp;ssl=1 2048w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/20240607_211054-scaled.jpg?w=1208 1208w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/20240607_211054-scaled.jpg?w=1812 1812w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 604px) 100vw, 604px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-beige-background-color has-background\">If I can keep my musical activities&#8217; going I should be OK for company for a while. I can be very chatty given the chance. We are all a mass of contradictions.  Interactions others might brush off as slightly annoying often catch one out and take the wind out the sails . On  the other hand still have within me just a trace of spiv\/gangsta\/con artiste and ego tripper old ham (perhaps this is every performer ever). And a strong sense of self-preservation. And a ridiculous but mostly supressed libedo&#8230; I am a grade one loon. Maybe as mad as Liz truss <img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" height=\"16\" width=\"16\" src=\"https:\/\/static.xx.fbcdn.net\/images\/emoji.php\/v9\/t57\/1\/16\/1f609.png\" alt=\"\ud83d\ude09\"> <br>I am introverted somewhat but not by choice (socially awkward at times). I like people but I can&#8217;t easily make small talk but with people of my tribe (musicians mostly) I am OK.<br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>A song for you.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"100%\" height=\"166\" scrolling=\"no\" frameborder=\"no\" allow=\"autoplay\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/1702064364&#038;color=%238c8cc8&#038;auto_play=false&#038;hide_related=false&#038;show_comments=true&#038;show_user=true&#038;show_reposts=false&#038;show_teaser=true\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<div style=\"font-size: 10px; color: #cccccc;line-break: anywhere;word-break: normal;overflow: hidden;white-space: nowrap;text-overflow: ellipsis; font-family: Interstate,Lucida Grande,Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Sans,Garuda,Verdana,Tahoma,sans-serif;font-weight: 100;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\" title=\"Diana Stones Glasscage\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" rel=\"noopener\">Diana Stones Glasscage<\/a> \u00b7 <a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/going-to-hell-anyway\" title=\"Going To Hell Anyway\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" rel=\"noopener\">Going To Hell Anyway<\/a><\/div>\n\n\n<h4 class=\"wp-block-heading\">I am just a child shouting look at me aren&#8217;t I clever and sulking when I get ignored. Its the human condition.<\/h4>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Today I lost my temper out of the blue. It really scares me when that happens and it makes me feel bad afterwards. I think its the one remnant of childhood and being bullied. I can overreact although I try not to. It sneaks up on me like a thunderstorm out of the blue. it &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/06\/08\/strange-days-again-it-seems\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Strange Days Again It Seems<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-177468","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-musings"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6NRDR-Kao","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":179634,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2025\/12\/28\/another-day\/","url_meta":{"origin":177468,"position":0},"title":"Another Day","author":"diana Stone","date":"December 28, 2025","format":false,"excerpt":"Its just that time of year again I guess really and nothing more. 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