{"id":176792,"date":"2024-03-09T20:11:50","date_gmt":"2024-03-09T20:11:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=176792"},"modified":"2024-03-09T20:11:50","modified_gmt":"2024-03-09T20:11:50","slug":"what-am-i-like-you-really-dont-want-to-know","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/03\/09\/what-am-i-like-you-really-dont-want-to-know\/","title":{"rendered":"What Am I Like, You Really Don&#8217;t Want To Know."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-text-align-justify has-off-white-background-color has-background\">Yep, my mind is a mixture of quite disturbing thoughts at times.  Well it is at the time of writing.  My goodness there goes another one. I am all a flutter. Gadzooks.  I have been working a lot of trying to improve my fitness post Covid and lockdown and all that jazz. I think its working but I have equally well been getting more and more irritable and impatient to. My life is very quiet compared to how things were 5 years ago when I was still playing regular gigs and a lot of other stuff was also occupying my time too.  Now I have time to think. Thinking can lead one to dangerous places which is why perhaps so many people on Facebook,  X  and so forth don&#8217;t even bother to attempt it?   <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-justify has-off-white-background-color has-background\">A friend said I seemed irritable. Well lately I think I often am.  Mostly with the universe in general. I am quite a full on sort of person when I get going. I can be a bit fiery. Perhaps I am a dragon&#8230;I also have to remember not to interject oaths and swearing in my conversations. I am constantly twitchy and tend to fidget. If I were giving a lecture I would be pacing from side to side rather than standing at the podium I think. <br><br>Here is a new song. Piano and Vocals. The latest keyboard I have has a really decent piano samples on it that make for a little more subtly that is very apparent on recordings. <br><br><strong>Never Again As Friends<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"100%\" height=\"166\" scrolling=\"no\" frameborder=\"no\" allow=\"autoplay\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/1770039768&#038;color=%23bd6f3c&#038;auto_play=false&#038;hide_related=false&#038;show_comments=true&#038;show_user=true&#038;show_reposts=false&#038;show_teaser=true\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<div style=\"font-size: 10px; color: #cccccc;line-break: anywhere;word-break: normal;overflow: hidden;white-space: nowrap;text-overflow: ellipsis; font-family: Interstate,Lucida Grande,Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Sans,Garuda,Verdana,Tahoma,sans-serif;font-weight: 100;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\" title=\"Diana Stones Glasscage\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" rel=\"noopener\">Diana Stones Glasscage<\/a> \u00b7 <a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/never-again-as-friends\" title=\"Never Again As Friends\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" rel=\"noopener\">Never Again As Friends<\/a><\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"has-off-white-background-color has-background\">When I was younger and very naive I thought I would never understand why people would start to lean on alcohol and drugs as a crutch. 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Well it is at the time of writing. My goodness there goes another one. I am all a flutter. Gadzooks. I have been working a lot of trying to improve my fitness post Covid and lockdown and all that jazz. I think its &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/03\/09\/what-am-i-like-you-really-dont-want-to-know\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">What Am I Like, You Really Don&#8217;t Want To Know.<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":176858,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[10,60,4,3,17,35,1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-176792","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-diana_stones_songs","category-glass-cage","category-music","category-musings","category-other","category-piano","category-whatever"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/03\/20240309_122043-scaled.jpg?fit=1244%2C2560&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6NRDR-JZu","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":82415,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2017\/06\/16\/working-with-the-resources-that-you-have\/","url_meta":{"origin":176792,"position":0},"title":"Working with the resources that you have","author":"diana Stone","date":"June 16, 2017","format":"aside","excerpt":"Today has been a bit rough mentally. \u00a0Often when I have been away for a little while I tend to get a bit depressed on returning home and very irritable \u00a0too. \u00a0If I could afford it perhaps I would just keep moving for ever. \u00a0The world and I are at\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Musings&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Musings","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/category\/musings\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"Careers advice","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/06\/20170530_201226-576x1024.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/06\/20170530_201226-576x1024.jpg?resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/06\/20170530_201226-576x1024.jpg?resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":1154,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2011\/11\/29\/headaches-and-other-stuff\/","url_meta":{"origin":176792,"position":1},"title":"headaches and other stuff","author":"diana Stone","date":"November 29, 2011","format":false,"excerpt":"Out on 3 gigs, two with the Elephant Shelf and one with Deltas. 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