{"id":174990,"date":"2021-06-15T21:19:44","date_gmt":"2021-06-15T20:19:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=174990"},"modified":"2021-06-15T21:19:44","modified_gmt":"2021-06-15T20:19:44","slug":"beginning-ending-or-middle","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2021\/06\/15\/beginning-ending-or-middle\/","title":{"rendered":"Beginning Ending or Middle"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"boldgrid-section\">\n<div class=\"container\">\n<div class=\"row\">\n<div class=\"col-md-12 col-xs-12 col-sm-12\">\n<p class=\"\">I&nbsp; am lost and clueless.&nbsp; And my mind is blank.&nbsp; We write a script for our lives and at a certain point we reach the last chapter. But what if everything does not stop there. Then what?&nbsp; Today has been an unintentional rest. I got very stressed yesterday and today I have just stopped. I am not sure why. Perhaps because I dont feel there is much I can do except have a bit of faith that some answers will come to me eventually. Sometimes perhaps to paraphrase &#8220;Do or do not there is no try&#8221; one should say rather &#8220;Do not or try&#8221;.&nbsp; I feel personally I am at the end of things, though rationally it does not make sense.&nbsp; Its a very uncomfortable feeling and profoundly&nbsp; disturbing.&nbsp; Just waiting for the doom to strike out of a clear blue sky.&nbsp; &nbsp;<\/p>\n<h3>&nbsp;\u2018We know what we are, but know not what we may be.\u2019<\/h3>\n<p><em>(Hamlet, Act 4, Scene 5)<\/em><\/p>\n<p class=\"\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"100%\" height=\"600\" scrolling=\"no\" frameborder=\"no\" allow=\"autoplay\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/409501626&#038;color=%234c5c84&#038;auto_play=false&#038;hide_related=false&#038;show_comments=true&#038;show_user=true&#038;show_reposts=false&#038;show_teaser=true&#038;visual=true\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<div style=\"font-size: 10px; color: #cccccc;line-break: anywhere;word-break: normal;overflow: hidden;white-space: nowrap;text-overflow: ellipsis; font-family: Interstate,Lucida Grande,Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Sans,Garuda,Verdana,Tahoma,sans-serif;font-weight: 100;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\" title=\"Diana Stones Glasscage\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" rel=\"noopener\">Diana Stones Glasscage<\/a> \u00b7 <a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/relevant\" title=\"Relevant\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" rel=\"noopener\">Relevant<\/a><\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&nbsp; am lost and clueless.&nbsp; And my mind is blank.&nbsp; We write a script for our lives and at a certain point we reach the last chapter. But what if everything does not stop there. Then what?&nbsp; Today has been an unintentional rest. I got very stressed yesterday and today I have just stopped. I &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2021\/06\/15\/beginning-ending-or-middle\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Beginning Ending or Middle<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[10,60,4,3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-174990","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-diana_stones_songs","category-glass-cage","category-music","category-musings"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6NRDR-Jwq","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":178411,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/12\/16\/its-all-about-the-money-you-know\/","url_meta":{"origin":174990,"position":0},"title":"Its All About The Money You Know","author":"diana Stone","date":"December 16, 2024","format":false,"excerpt":"A song for you, or you or even you? 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