{"id":174920,"date":"2021-04-26T14:01:31","date_gmt":"2021-04-26T13:01:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=174920"},"modified":"2021-04-26T14:01:31","modified_gmt":"2021-04-26T13:01:31","slug":"its-fear-jim-but-not-as-we-know-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2021\/04\/26\/its-fear-jim-but-not-as-we-know-it\/","title":{"rendered":"Its fear Jim but not as we know it"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"boldgrid-section\">\n<div class=\"container\">\n<div class=\"row\">\n<div class=\"col-md-12 col-xs-12 col-sm-12\">\n<p class=\"\">I am getting crazier by the minute I think.&nbsp; Yesterday was a good day, but today I am back in the world of weird big time. My anxiety is getting worse&nbsp; day by day. I am note keeping it together terribly well at all. Its pretty much your actual existential dread.<br \/>\nI am running on instinct now.&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"\">I am in my room surrounded by all my toys, materialy I have everything I need. But right now as the sun goes down I feel pretty empty. I have a track waiting for a vocal which I can&#8217;t bring myself to start singing on. Friday and Saturday nights in particular are often when I feel at my lowest ebb. Gig nights and no gigs and also of course absent friends. When does one ever stop missing people? Perhaps never I suspect.<\/p>\n<p class=\"\">I know the world is still turning and people are carrying on because I have seen it but sometimes it feels like everything is ended.&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"\">I just watched a live webcast of a friend (jan Ayes) funeral.&nbsp; She among many things ran the Waltham Abbey Folk Club and gave the Delta Ladies a bit of&nbsp; a helping hand via her good offices.&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"\">Anyway here&#8217;s a song about moving on. Figuratively or literally. Its a got a bit of fiddle on it too&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p class=\"\"><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/960619966&amp;color=%23de7543&amp;auto_play=false&amp;hide_related=false&amp;show_comments=true&amp;show_user=true&amp;show_reposts=false&amp;show_teaser=true&amp;visual=true\" width=\"100%\" height=\"300\" frameborder=\"no\" scrolling=\"no\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<div style=\"font-size: 10px; color: #cccccc; line-break: anywhere; word-break: normal; overflow: hidden; white-space: nowrap; text-overflow: ellipsis; font-family: Interstate,Lucida Grande,Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Sans,Garuda,Verdana,Tahoma,sans-serif; font-weight: 100;\">\n<p class=\"mod-reset\"><a style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" title=\"Diana Stones Glasscage\" href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Diana Stones Glasscage<\/a><\/p>\n<p>\u00b7<\/p>\n<p class=\"mod-reset\"><a style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" title=\"And I Cannot FollowYou\" href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/and-i-cannot-followyou\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">And I Cannot FollowYou<\/a><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am getting crazier by the minute I think.&nbsp; Yesterday was a good day, but today I am back in the world of weird big time. My anxiety is getting worse&nbsp; day by day. I am note keeping it together terribly well at all. Its pretty much your actual existential dread. I am running on &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2021\/04\/26\/its-fear-jim-but-not-as-we-know-it\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Its fear Jim but not as we know it<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-174920","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-musings"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6NRDR-Jvi","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":178986,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2025\/05\/30\/nearly-june-already\/","url_meta":{"origin":174920,"position":0},"title":"Nearly June already","author":"diana Stone","date":"May 30, 2025","format":false,"excerpt":"Another year turns around. I feel that Midsummer should be when the new year starts. Ok I am obviously quite mad. Things are up and down as ever pretty much. Mostly I am about music as ever. I just tend to do stream of consciousness stuff, not story songs. 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This week I have had disturbed sleep and car problems that have thrown me a little. Hopefully the car can be fixed (a plan is in motion), but the sleep disruption is a real nuisance. I had to miss a band rehearsal\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Musings&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Musings","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/category\/musings\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/WP_20160511_20_39_39_Pro-scaled.jpg?fit=1200%2C674&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/WP_20160511_20_39_39_Pro-scaled.jpg?fit=1200%2C674&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/WP_20160511_20_39_39_Pro-scaled.jpg?fit=1200%2C674&ssl=1&resize=525%2C300 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/WP_20160511_20_39_39_Pro-scaled.jpg?fit=1200%2C674&ssl=1&resize=700%2C400 2x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/10\/WP_20160511_20_39_39_Pro-scaled.jpg?fit=1200%2C674&ssl=1&resize=1050%2C600 3x"},"classes":[]},{"id":1160,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2011\/12\/11\/december-2011-continued\/","url_meta":{"origin":174920,"position":2},"title":"December 2011 continued","author":"diana Stone","date":"December 11, 2011","format":false,"excerpt":"3 gigs this weekend one on Thursday at Cafe Rouge in Highgate that was mellow but good fun and we have been invited back in January if all go's well. 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Today I was working on a song called \"Everybody sells out eventually\" and of course it\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Musings&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Musings","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/category\/musings\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/11\/Diana-casual.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200},"classes":[]},{"id":175245,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2022\/02\/23\/rain-and-more-rain-mostly\/","url_meta":{"origin":174920,"position":4},"title":"Rain And More Rain Mostly","author":"diana Stone","date":"February 23, 2022","format":false,"excerpt":"It's a bit damp again and my bones ache. February is going pretty quickly so far. I stil feel a bit out of sorts generally and very tired.\u00a0 Its good though to be up and doing stuff again with other people on a regular basis musically.\u00a0 It looks pretty certain\u2026","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Delta Ladies&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Delta Ladies","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/category\/delta-ladies\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"Diana Stone and Jan Jackson","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/02\/Broadstairs-Blues-Bash-768x1024.jpg?resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/02\/Broadstairs-Blues-Bash-768x1024.jpg?resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/02\/Broadstairs-Blues-Bash-768x1024.jpg?resize=525%2C300 1.5x"},"classes":[]},{"id":173612,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2020\/12\/22\/christmas-2020\/","url_meta":{"origin":174920,"position":5},"title":"Christmas 2020","author":"diana Stone","date":"December 22, 2020","format":false,"excerpt":"Well so far its mostly shit really and likely to get worse I suspect. The perfect end to a bad year.\u00a0 Or perhaps simply a slightly drawn out end of everything. It feels a bit that way now. I am making attempts to keep a vaguely buoyant image. 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